There have been many days where I wished I could write everything I currently feel on this blog but I know that wouldn't be appropriate. Plus, it wouldn't solve any of our current problems. I sometimes still can't wrap my head around how much of a 360 I've undergone these past few months - total FS cheerleader to totally beat down by the bureaucracies of State Department. This is what an evacuation can do to you. Especially one where you aren't privy to the decisions being made about you and your family's life but instead must pass everyday on rumors through the grapevine.
"Just wait - the bureaus will have clarity in a few months."
"I can only imagine how hard it is, just be a little more patient."
"I know it's hard but this is what you signed up for - this is the Foreign Service."
That last statement has been particularly grating lately. One more person that says that to me and I think I will totally lose my cool. I signed up for a lot of things in the Foreign Service - going to some random country with no access to internet, being far away from family during the worst and best times, constantly being an unrecognized public servant, telling my husband that his career revolves around mine, hearing people overseas ask me where I'm really from, etc. BUT - I did NOT sign up for my (and more importantly my husband's) life being treated like this. That we are going to sit here for an undecided amount of time while someone else decides for us how and where we can live. It's been incredibly hard to be an ELO (entry level officer) and being told that I have no choice but wait until someone ELSE tells us what we're doing.
"You might be going to Cairo later this year."
"Cairo could become unaccompanied so your husband will have to figure something else out."
"Maybe they will let you bring your husband - wouldn't that be great?"
Yea sure - I know hubby is DYING to head to an unstable country with little/no opportunities for work.
....I will stop this rant now because it will never end. Thanks for listening.
"Just wait - the bureaus will have clarity in a few months."
"I can only imagine how hard it is, just be a little more patient."
"I know it's hard but this is what you signed up for - this is the Foreign Service."
That last statement has been particularly grating lately. One more person that says that to me and I think I will totally lose my cool. I signed up for a lot of things in the Foreign Service - going to some random country with no access to internet, being far away from family during the worst and best times, constantly being an unrecognized public servant, telling my husband that his career revolves around mine, hearing people overseas ask me where I'm really from, etc. BUT - I did NOT sign up for my (and more importantly my husband's) life being treated like this. That we are going to sit here for an undecided amount of time while someone else decides for us how and where we can live. It's been incredibly hard to be an ELO (entry level officer) and being told that I have no choice but wait until someone ELSE tells us what we're doing.
"You might be going to Cairo later this year."
"Cairo could become unaccompanied so your husband will have to figure something else out."
"Maybe they will let you bring your husband - wouldn't that be great?"
Yea sure - I know hubby is DYING to head to an unstable country with little/no opportunities for work.
....I will stop this rant now because it will never end. Thanks for listening.
No comments:
Post a Comment